“God has given the world a holy Church in whose safe harbor the lovers of truth seek refuge, as well as all those who desire to be saved and to escape the dreadful wrath of God.” –– St. Theophilus of Antioch
“[S]ince it is in the very nature of man to follow the guide of reason in his actions, if his intellect sins at all his will soon follows; and thus it happens that false opinions, whose seat is in the understanding, influence human actions and pervert them. Whereas … if men be of sound mind and take their stand on true and solid principles, there will result a vast amount of benefits for the public and private good. … For, not in vain did God set the light of reason in the human mind….” — Aeterni Patris §2
“32 And the spirits of the prophets are subject to the prophets. 33 For God is not the God of dissension, but of peace”. — I Corinthians 14
A year of laughter and growth and photos to warm anyone’s heart!
A year of changes and challenges which stretched my faith!
Yes, today, one year later–my firstborn is two years old!
I just had cake and kisses with my family for my daughter’s birthday, yet a deep melancholy perches upon my heart like a seething vulture. With what I should have known was morbid certainty, my post about abstaining from commentary on “this papacy” (or, “this kaleidoscope of papal puzzles”) only bred more commentary thereon. In a fresh way, I am almost unspeakably grieved to find myself at odds with friends and brethren, and just as deeply wounded to know that brothers-in-arms are still as firmly in the bewildered ranks of the walking wounded as I myself was when “the time of troubles” began. Thus, my mind wanders in an arid aporia of piety and hope, groping for a reason why a phenomenon, so full of “hope and change” for so many, bears down upon me as an unprecedented bramble of dissension and confusion in the one “safe harbor” promised to man.
Lent is my salvation, both because it gives me something else with which to preoccupy myself, but also because it puts the past half-year in the perfect context. I have been going through a Great Lent at this blog, and the only relief, as Lent reminds us, is that “Whenever [God] afflict[s], it is to heal, and wherever [He] mortif[ies], life increases” (Fr. Gabriel, Divine Intimacy §96). The good news of the bad news of mortification is that I am ordered to get out of my own head and bury my fears, drives, dreams, and duties in the healing wounds of Christ Crucified. On the other side of this Cross is Resurrection, both for myself and for Holy Mother Church–even as we can imagine Her speaking within Her innermost Heart, “Lies! I have been deceived!”
Until that dawn, however, please do not expect me to get into the groove simply because it’s the loudest show on earth.